Blessing

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Hello there! It's been a year since i have not shared my thoughts here. I've been so busy with my life lately.A great blessing has come and bring so much joy to my life. That blessing is my Little Man, Yes, His name is Charles Ethan..:).. I know God gave him to me because he knew i can take care and love him with all my heart and soul.


Still The One

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I'm so thankful I have someone like you ,You're someone I can count on when I need a helping hand..You're compassionate and loving. I love you..
happy 34th monthsary..


Happiness and joy
Are memories I have with you
And many more months
To look forward to.

Destiny

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Knowing that after all this time,
we still love each other makes me think..
myBaby, You're my Destiny..:)


Happy 31st monthsary!!..


A mother like no other

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I wish we're still together
to celebrate your special day
But i want you to know
that i will be celebrating it
with you in my heart..
a heart that's filled
with so much love for you
now and always.

I Wish our time together
weren't too short
that we could have more time
to talk and spend more moments
to be with each other.

Missed your encouragement
that has given me wings to fly,
and your love that will always
be part of me
wherever i go in life.

No matter where I go
I'll always find you there
Because you're in my heart
always and forever.


Happy birthday Ma....

30th month of journey

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"Two and a 1/2... weeeh... another month old!!! trials constantly visit's us but OUR LOVE always WIN's as such...lots of LOVE... mwaaaaaah!!!
i love you so much myAisa!!!"


Hearing those words from you made me stronger and love you more, That whatever trials we may encounter, I know that our love will keep us together. I want the whole world to know how happy and lucky I am, to have you in my life.. i love you more myMark..:)

happy birthday to me!..:).

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happy birthday to me!:).. I am now stepping another year of my journey. Chapter 21 has closed and is indeed a great one for me, though many problems have arrived but i was not able to give up on life because God made me strong to conquer it all!..congrats to me..hehe..!thanks to all my beloved who are always there for me. So here i am welcoming chapter 22!!!..hopefully it will be more fun and success pero wag lang sana more problems..haha.. But i know I've got to be ready because problems are everywhere, kasama na yan sa life. all I have to do is have faith and believe in myself...
It was fun celebrating my day, it's about 12:00 am when my boyfriend called me. How sweet of him calling me in the middle of the night just to greet me a happy birthday. Some of my friends sent a message with their wishes for me. I am so happy that they got the effort to greet me on my special day.:).. it was 5am then, i am still in the land of dreams when a song woke me up. I warned my aunt not to make mañanita to me but they still did..waaaah.. so i have no choice but to face them wearing pajamas and still half asleep.hahaha.. It was my first time experiencing that stuff. its kinda make me uncomfortable because they let me sit in the middle and all their attention are in me. Eventually, i felt good when i heard someone reading the bible. I was touch by their wishes, and take note they also brought flowers for me. After the mañanita, i made my heartfelt thank you to everyone for their time and effort. It was indeed a good experience.
I decided not to make handa in my birthday. But i never expected that my brother would offer his chicken to be slaughtered.hahaha.. i guess yon nalang cguro ang gift nya sakin. well, sweet little bro!..:D.. so the katayan begin. hahaha.. since i don't know how to katay the manok..hehe, I let my uncle do it, and I'll do the cooking. my cousin ask me to watch for her kid because she will be going to market to buy something. unfortunately, my nephew poop on her shorts..waaaaah.. is this a gift?..hahaha.. so i have to wash her butt. haha..this is the most memorable thing I did on my day!..(lol)... some of my relatives visits our house so I decided to buy ice cream for them. I have a lot of little cousins so ice cream is best for them..:D.. I enjoyed watching them eating ice cream. And I've got the chance to talk to my aunts and grand mothers and I enjoyed making kulitan with my nephews. What a nice birthday!!..
5 pm when i told my father that i will be going to CDO para don na magsimba sa cathedral, but unfortunately he refused to let me go.(sad).. So i decided na bukas nalang magsimba.
One more thing, I have been always expecting that my best friend would be the last person to greet me on my birthday, unfortunately this time she did not make it. no text, no call.. walang paramdam at all. I guess she's already busy with her motherhood life, and i have to understand that.
To sum it up!!.. It was still fun and memorable day. My warmest thank you to everyone who made my day a very special day!..:)

Just a thought

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Being into a relationship between a man and a woman is a hard thing to do. It's tough because every individual is unique and got a lot of differences.
Let me share with you my thoughts about this kind of relationship. All of us knew that in a relationship, there are always circumstances. Sometimes we get hurt, I consider it saying hurt is a twin of Love (haha). But, the most important thing when we get hurt is learning how to rise and move on. Forgive and learn from it. It seemed to be so easy saying those words, but when we are into the situation, we find it hard to forgive and simply forget what had happened. It will take to time to heal the wound. We tend to be so emotional, sometimes we jumped into a decision that might worsen the situation. As they say don't decide when you're so down and when you're too happy, and I absolutely agree with that. We might end up regretful when we do things on rush. Some people say that no one will understand them because they are not into it or they cannot feel the pain. Yes, They may not be able to feel it, but they are there to listen to your sentiments, it's the least that they can do. Letting your emotions out can help you ease the pain and can help do something to make things right or better. There are things or changes that we may not be able to understand why it happens, but eventually we realize that there's a reason behind it, and it's just a matter of acceptance. Just look on the brighter side of your relationship. Never forget those times that you we're happy with them. Be more patient and understanding. But if its still didn't work out and If if you think your love does not work with that person, it just means that someone else loves you more. Move on and never loose hope. You deserve to be happy. We all deserve to be happy.

Wake up!

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Someone said "If your strength is small, don't carry heavy burdens. "
I wonder if i had the strength to carry this burden right now. I don't know if it's really a burden, or it is just a test. I felt so neglected, doing things to someone which he doesn't even seem to care. After my mom left us, I know I got a big responsibility to take good care of my siblings, since I am the eldest. A lot of adjustments to accept, many things to do. I keep on questioning myself, can I do this?, i was 13 back then, wala pang masiyadong ka-alam2x sa mundo. I used to depend on my mother in taking good care of my siblings and disciplining them, doing the laundry and all the motherhood stuff. And suddenly those things are into my shoulders(Ang hirap!!). But I can't do nothing but to accept the fact that this is my life now, and i have to embrace this responsibility and lift them up to Lord. As we grew up, my brothers acted like they didn't care. My words are worthless, my deeds are meaningless. Maybe there is something wrong with me that made them treat me this way. I just did the things that I think is the best for them. Giving them what they need and what they want, of course with the help of my papa, However it seemed like it's not enough. I use mile patience to understand them, i keep on telling myself that they are too young to understand that what I am doing is for their own good. Last month I was crying hard when my father told me that my brother is not going to school anymore. I tried to convince him to go back to school, but he acted like I was not there. Our relationship is not in good terms right now. I chose not to talk to him, ignore him like what he did, i chose not to let him know that i still care. hopefully he'll realize my existence through my absence.
I've always been praying that someday he'll realize that he was wrong and do the right thing. I am not losing hope, I know God is always there. He's watching and will do something to make things better. I've been wishing that someday he'll realize my worth.

Two years of you and me

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Happy Anniversary!!
Words can't explain how great to have had you in my life these last 2 years. Reminiscing the time when i first saw you made me smile and thank God that He let me share my life with you. We may have a lot of differences but our patience made us strong and love each other more. We may have some misunderstanding sometimes but our love keeps us together and surpasses every problem that we had. Thank you for your love, patience, and understanding. I love you!..:)


From My Heart

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Welcome 2010!. another year has opened and hopefully it will be a year of joy and happiness. Year 2009 has been a good year to me. I got my friends who are always there for me, a family whom I lean on and someone who treated me so special (heart). Simple thank you is not enough to recognize how grateful I am for all the things that all of them have done for me.

To my friends, thank you for your time and for the patience when in my "buang" mode. thank you for the serious talks that made me grow mature. For all the love and support i receive from all of you, thank you. You are indeed a friend that should be treasured. Sorry too for the trouble I made. I am looking forward to spending more years with guys.

To my Family, Papa, Thank you for the endless love you've showered to us. Thank you for the love that warms my heart. Thank you for all you have given us. Thank you for your continuing support in my endeavors. To my brothers, thank you for the laughters. i love you guys,i hope you know that. To my mama, I know you are now in heaven, Thank you for giving me the strength to go on. Thank you for everything. i love you all.

To my love, and hopefully be my future partner. Thank you for filling up my heart with joy and laughter. I might have shortcomings, stubborn at times, hard-headed or even moody, but yet your patience has let you understand me even more and loved me beyond compare. With this, I thank you for your patience and love. i love you with all my heart.

From my heart. Thank you so much!!.:)

Thank You

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"I love you more than any word can say...
I love you more than every action I take...
I'll be right here loving you till the end."

You never know what to expect when it comes to love. you never know what to expect when it comes to life either. its up to you either hit it or ignore it. everybody is free to decide on his/her own. In my case i chose to let go of someone and chose to be with another, hoping that i wont regret having this decision.
My heart beats fast when i think of him. my heart smiles when i remember his name. suddenly, a question comes to mind.. "am I in love?..".. well, Fortunately i found such a brilliant answer to that question. and i said.. "YES, I'm absolutely in love"..:)..
I'm looking forward to spending time with him and enjoy every moment when he is around. i want to spend the rest of my life with him and I'm willing to adjust to make us both happy.:)..i love him for who he is, i wouldn't want to exchange him for anything in the world. i can be myself when I am with him. i can fight against the world because i know he will be by my side always.i love the way i know he'll never give up on me. i love the way he makes me smile.:)..i love the way he makes me feel like he's right here next to me even if we are actually miles apart. i love how he would do anything to make me happy. i must thank God everyday for bringing someone as wonderful as him into my life.:)..
Three days ago.. i was with him, having fun with him. It's such a happy feeling that i got a chance to visit him and bond with him. as i look into his eyes and says "i love you",its feels like i said it for the first time..haha.. and when i heard him saying that words it make me feel like they're the sweetest words i ever heard..:)..weeee.. i would like to share with you how happy i am having him and how lucky i am being chosen by him.. he's one of the reasons why i live life as happy as i can be. i must thank him for giving me this kind of happines, for his patience when I'm being so immature and most especially for "LOVING ME"-Thank You-..

=-i love you-=

Hard to say "Goodbye"

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Its really hard to say goodbye to the person when you know that you can never say hello again. it hurts to say goodbye to someone you love most. It is the hardest word that our mouth can utter. it needs enough time before saying it.
8 years has past,8 years of mourning.8 year of longing for your love and care. i was only 13 back then,when i was staring at you, and kept on asking you-" isn't it too early for you to go?..leave us?don't you wanna see us grow?.."- it hurts me a lot knowing that you can't answer me anymore. Screaming is not enough for me to release all the pain inside. it tears my heart thinking that i can't spend time with you again.I'm sad because you left. i cry because i know you're not coming back. i terribly miss you. i miss those happy moments that we had. Oh how i wish you're still here beside me, but i i know that wish will never be granted. Life wouldn't be the same without you and all the memories you have given me. A part of you has grown in me, you're definitely a big part of what i am right now. don't you know that I've been dreaming of you? I've been dreaming that we're together,hugging you and telling you how much i love you and suddenly i wake up realizing that its just a dream, i can't help but to cry..but i'd still thank God for letting me be with you even if it's just in a dream.God knows how much i want to be with you again. God knows how regretful i am, that i failed to tell you and prove to you how much i care and love you.
there must be a reason why you suddenly leave, God knows why. thank you for giving me a chance to see the world, thank you for the undying love and care .No one can ever erase you in my heart. Don't worry we're OK. we're doing good. you'll always be remembered and loved by me.. "i love you mama".
Farewell! God knows when we shall meet again.


Happy heart

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It was November 2006 when i met someone so 'ordinary', someone that i never expected to become a part of me.. how it happened?.. we met when i attended a training for work.. he caught my attention when he gave me something(don't mind that something..haha..) And i was so touched when he lend me his jacket. i was freezing at that time because of the very low room temperature.then friendship began to grow between us. Unfortunately, i failed to continue the training so after 4 days, we went separate ways.. i thought that was the end, but i was surprised when he texted me..and so we begun updating each other. it was January 22,2008 when we stepped on the new stage of our relationship..:).. the sad part is that we immediately have to be in a long distance relationship..(sigh).long distance relationships have always had the stigma that they don't work. but for me, having a successful, a lasting long distance relationship is possible.:).., we made it possible!!.. we've been in that setup for 9 months at nalampasan namn namin yon..:).. until now, we enjoyed every moment that we've been together.. we've been together for 1 year and 8 months now!!..yipeee!.. and i know there are more years to come, (confident mode..hehe)..
I'm so lucky having him..:).. he's not just a lover, he continues to be a friend to me.. he gives mea lot of advices, he patiently confronts me whenever i did something wrong, i love the way he handles troubled times, he makes me feel that I'm the most beautiful girl in the world,hehe..(weee??..),and he appreciates every little thing i do for him. to sum it up, the more i know him,the more I'm falling in love with him.:)..
it's been 3 months that we're apart again, and i admit it,i miss him so much..though we had a constant communication, i still miss him.." i miss his presence".. hmmmm i know he misses me,too..:).. i want to let him know that i love him so..i love him yesterday, today, and for all my tomorrows..

i miss you

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haist.. hard to accept but i can't deny the fact that something really changed..just like the way i talk to her.. i can't even look into her eyes directly..yes we're OK now.. but the pain is still there.. i was badly hurt by her words..and yes,i must've hurt her, too..maybe i just need more time to let go of the pain..hopefully it will be soon..I'm trying..
she's one of the persons i treasured so much..she's a friend, she became my crying shoulder, i can freely share my burdens, and especially my secrets..she's one of a kind girl that i cant afford to lose. i found a real sister in her and she's absolutely my ANGEL too..
i miss her now..i miss talking to her, i miss chatting with her,i miss plurking with her, miss ko na siyang kulitin, i used to tease her.. during our confrontation sa ym, she even told me "puro lang ka kabuang!"..yes i used to hear my friends telling me that im so buang, because of my endless jokes,but did she forget how i talk to her seriously?..or have she ever really witness that i still have my serious side despite of my kabuang?..there was a time that i told her "i miss the old her"..- and i mean it..honestly I'm happy for what she is right now..i just miss the old her who patiently understood me for who i am the who patiently confronted me when i did something wrong without being harsh, and for not saying bad words just to express she is badly disappointed to someone..
im just hoping nah sana bumalik kami sa dati.. hopefully i can still bond with her without the
"ilang" factor..for now just want to let her know that "I MISS HER"..

practice makes me better :)

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Hello there!..here i am trying to make a difference by creating this blogging stuff..(harhar).. honestly I'm not really fond in writing or sharing my thoughts to the world about something.. i salute those who who maintain their blogs and confidently share happy and sad moments that they've been through, they can write anything that they want to say,express their anxieties, show to the world the they are aching inside which they can only express by writing, and share about their happiness together with their family and friends..:)...and i think i can do that too...kaya ko toh!! i just need to be confident and believe in myself that i can make it..:).. and look at me now, I'm learning right?..well am i?..(please be gentle, say yes)..hahaha..
Writing is such a big challenge for me..(real BIG hehe)..coz i'm not used to writing what's going on in my life..well i think this is the time to try writing them down.. im not getting any younger..time for me to experience having a new imaginary friend who can listen with out any complain(come to think of it, pano xa magrereklamo?..ahahaha..)i know this is going to be fun very fun..:)..

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