Sep
23

Hard to say "Goodbye"

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Its really hard to say goodbye to the person when you know that you can never say hello again. it hurts to say goodbye to someone you love most. It is the hardest word that our mouth can utter. it needs enough time before saying it.
8 years has past,8 years of mourning.8 year of longing for your love and care. i was only 13 back then,when i was staring at you, and kept on asking you-" isn't it too early for you to go?..leave us?don't you wanna see us grow?.."- it hurts me a lot knowing that you can't answer me anymore. Screaming is not enough for me to release all the pain inside. it tears my heart thinking that i can't spend time with you again.I'm sad because you left. i cry because i know you're not coming back. i terribly miss you. i miss those happy moments that we had. Oh how i wish you're still here beside me, but i i know that wish will never be granted. Life wouldn't be the same without you and all the memories you have given me. A part of you has grown in me, you're definitely a big part of what i am right now. don't you know that I've been dreaming of you? I've been dreaming that we're together,hugging you and telling you how much i love you and suddenly i wake up realizing that its just a dream, i can't help but to cry..but i'd still thank God for letting me be with you even if it's just in a dream.God knows how much i want to be with you again. God knows how regretful i am, that i failed to tell you and prove to you how much i care and love you.
there must be a reason why you suddenly leave, God knows why. thank you for giving me a chance to see the world, thank you for the undying love and care .No one can ever erase you in my heart. Don't worry we're OK. we're doing good. you'll always be remembered and loved by me.. "i love you mama".
Farewell! God knows when we shall meet again.


Sep
17

Happy heart

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It was November 2006 when i met someone so 'ordinary', someone that i never expected to become a part of me.. how it happened?.. we met when i attended a training for work.. he caught my attention when he gave me something(don't mind that something..haha..) And i was so touched when he lend me his jacket. i was freezing at that time because of the very low room temperature.then friendship began to grow between us. Unfortunately, i failed to continue the training so after 4 days, we went separate ways.. i thought that was the end, but i was surprised when he texted me..and so we begun updating each other. it was January 22,2008 when we stepped on the new stage of our relationship..:).. the sad part is that we immediately have to be in a long distance relationship..(sigh).long distance relationships have always had the stigma that they don't work. but for me, having a successful, a lasting long distance relationship is possible.:).., we made it possible!!.. we've been in that setup for 9 months at nalampasan namn namin yon..:).. until now, we enjoyed every moment that we've been together.. we've been together for 1 year and 8 months now!!..yipeee!.. and i know there are more years to come, (confident mode..hehe)..
I'm so lucky having him..:).. he's not just a lover, he continues to be a friend to me.. he gives mea lot of advices, he patiently confronts me whenever i did something wrong, i love the way he handles troubled times, he makes me feel that I'm the most beautiful girl in the world,hehe..(weee??..),and he appreciates every little thing i do for him. to sum it up, the more i know him,the more I'm falling in love with him.:)..
it's been 3 months that we're apart again, and i admit it,i miss him so much..though we had a constant communication, i still miss him.." i miss his presence".. hmmmm i know he misses me,too..:).. i want to let him know that i love him so..i love him yesterday, today, and for all my tomorrows..

Sep
9

i miss you

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haist.. hard to accept but i can't deny the fact that something really changed..just like the way i talk to her.. i can't even look into her eyes directly..yes we're OK now.. but the pain is still there.. i was badly hurt by her words..and yes,i must've hurt her, too..maybe i just need more time to let go of the pain..hopefully it will be soon..I'm trying..
she's one of the persons i treasured so much..she's a friend, she became my crying shoulder, i can freely share my burdens, and especially my secrets..she's one of a kind girl that i cant afford to lose. i found a real sister in her and she's absolutely my ANGEL too..
i miss her now..i miss talking to her, i miss chatting with her,i miss plurking with her, miss ko na siyang kulitin, i used to tease her.. during our confrontation sa ym, she even told me "puro lang ka kabuang!"..yes i used to hear my friends telling me that im so buang, because of my endless jokes,but did she forget how i talk to her seriously?..or have she ever really witness that i still have my serious side despite of my kabuang?..there was a time that i told her "i miss the old her"..- and i mean it..honestly I'm happy for what she is right now..i just miss the old her who patiently understood me for who i am the who patiently confronted me when i did something wrong without being harsh, and for not saying bad words just to express she is badly disappointed to someone..
im just hoping nah sana bumalik kami sa dati.. hopefully i can still bond with her without the
"ilang" factor..for now just want to let her know that "I MISS HER"..

Sep
9

practice makes me better :)

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Hello there!..here i am trying to make a difference by creating this blogging stuff..(harhar).. honestly I'm not really fond in writing or sharing my thoughts to the world about something.. i salute those who who maintain their blogs and confidently share happy and sad moments that they've been through, they can write anything that they want to say,express their anxieties, show to the world the they are aching inside which they can only express by writing, and share about their happiness together with their family and friends..:)...and i think i can do that too...kaya ko toh!! i just need to be confident and believe in myself that i can make it..:).. and look at me now, I'm learning right?..well am i?..(please be gentle, say yes)..hahaha..
Writing is such a big challenge for me..(real BIG hehe)..coz i'm not used to writing what's going on in my life..well i think this is the time to try writing them down.. im not getting any younger..time for me to experience having a new imaginary friend who can listen with out any complain(come to think of it, pano xa magrereklamo?..ahahaha..)i know this is going to be fun very fun..:)..

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